Stuck in between...

I would have....
I could have....
that is what I suppose to say most of time...

If I could...
If I had....
If I did not...
If I was...
that is the word I keep telling myself all the time...

Those times were full of regression, madness...emptiness....loneliness..
I have been busy thinking of the FUTURE...  what it look like? and how it does it look like..?
I have been busy thinking about things that have not yet happened... How foolish am I...
And days go by that sometimes, I do not even have the time to weep..
And when I weep, I must be finished soon. Because things are waitng for me, my tasks..
Oh these obligations, they never end...  These hardships, they always comes a new...

And times of loneness, I could imagine myself there..I feel the emptiness.. there is something missing...
If I would have think of it before, maybe I am affected by Mama and Papa, whom have been separated from each other in my younger years... Oh yes...maybe it had a part... And far from the horizon, I am seeking for comfort.. and I could fantasize the love of Rose and Jack, or the love of William Thucker and Anna Scott in Notting Hill..  Then it made my heart beat a little bit happier...to hope a little more...

And friends see me, I see them... I smile, and they smile too.. But somehow I can see when they turn their backs they got big stories going on in their curly little minds.. Oh brains... brains have been to busy... How could that be? when brain itself weighs 1,5kg. well, to think of it... it have a lot of space... But I hope their brain is not busy in thinking about others lives... Coz they do... If I could only see...

And in the end of the day, I get stucked in the middle of my thinking.. About a lot of things...
It runs too much till I get tired... Yeah... and think of those words again... as I start talking to myself...
If only I could...then I would.. realizing..that was a song ey?

anyways..here is a FANTASY music and hope you enjoy..

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And Imagination of THE FIRST SUPERMAN...

Think If HE WAS REAL::: then his job would be difficult..

Coz the world would rely on him only...